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08.09.2014

Unknown Waters

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If you’ve followed my writing for a while, you know I write pretty much “everything”. I think all my stories can be described as contemporary, but the sub-genres and themes wary a lot. There’s BDSM, there’s vampires, cowboys, mystery/thriller, HIV, alcoholism, porn stars, shifters, and now, with the release of my little short story in the Bedtime Stories anthology on the way, a ghost story as well.

Lately, after getting back to writing, I’ve tried a few new things. I’ve written a little bit of a futuristic kind of story, some YA futuristic semi-dystopian, and finally, some M/M fantasy. These are all new genres to me. I’ve always been super intimidated by creating worlds. Mainly because I used to read a lot of fantasy growing up and those were always so… epic.

So I guess my thought process was “I can’t do that” and maybe I still can’t, who knows. But I’m trying. Right now the story I’m mainly trying to work on is a fantasy about a healer who has chosen a solitary life and uses both natural remedies and some magic in his trade. He literally gets hit by someone, a small someone. Who might be cursed as punishment for something he did while bored, young, and foolish….

It’s a fun story so far and I enjoy writing it, even if I’m breaking all the rules with it. I mean I haven’t written a cohesive world building thing for it, and I’m adding things as I go. I don’t stop to think if my world SHOULD have this thing or that, I’m just adding it and going “it’s my world, dammit!” I think that’s what makes it so much fun. With fantasy you don’t have to think of the realities too much, even though as a mainly contemporary writer I tend to still try to hold onto a certain amount of realism….

I don’t know if and when any of the stories I’ve mentioned here might be finished, let alone published. But I do know that Bedtime Stories is out soon and you might want to check it out as a whole. It really has “something for everyone” and the stories are all lovely. You might just find new authors to add to your TBR pile, who knows!

My story, Flickers, is about Ben who realizes he’s haunted by a gay ghost (well it keeps staring at his butt when he sleeps in the nude, duh!) and has to figure out how to communicate with it to get rid of it or at least to make it happy. That leads him to a gay artist and possibly, love.

 

08.02.2014

What's Up?

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That’s the question. Well, first of all, as many of you who might read this know, I suffer from depression that is always there. Depending on a number of things, sometimes extremely random ones, I can do pretty well for a time, then pretty damn unwell the next instant.

None of this is new to me. I’ve suffered from anything from “mild” to “not-quite-suicidal” depression for most of my adult life. That’s more than a decade now. There was a time, around 2006-2010 when I felt much better and at times considered myself depression free. I’m not sure if I was, if I’m completely honest, but I was better. That’s the keyword here. With how my mental health is, “better” is a thing to aspire to be. “Healed” or “depression free”… No, I don’t much believe in those.

All that said, the last year has been pretty rough on me. The last six months even more so. There have been times when I’ve been seriously scared of my condition and how it has ups and downs and random spin-arounds. But hey, I’m still here!

For me personally—and I assume this might go for lot of writers/creative people with depression—my mental health is very connected to my creative outlet. Writing, for me, is always the thing that makes me feel better. Worthy. Even good. But when I’m depressed, the joy of writing is sucked out and my creativity dwindles, and I feel more depressed because I’m not writing, and then I can’t write because I feel like crap…. Endless cycle. Endless.

This summer I had my medication adjusted. New things and old things are being tried out, to see if something would help. To add to my condition, I have (somewhat mild) ADHD. And issues with falling asleep. Both of those mean additional medication. For me, no depression medication has ever really helped long term. None. And I have tried probably over a dozen different ones over the years. This time we went back to basics and back to serotonin which is pretty much as basic as you can get. It’s never worked before.

This time, it seems to be working. A little. How do I know this? I have ideas. I’m writing a little bit. I feel creative bursts that were missing for months and months. I have stories fading in and out of my mind like I had last year when things were better.

So I’m writing. It might take time, but dear deity I’m writing. When my favorite season, autumn, arrives soon, I expect to feel much better anyway. I’m one of those weird people who get worse in springtime and better in the fall, instead the more usual other way around. Light, for me, is worse than darkness.

All that said, the Fifty Questions with Tia thing is on hold until I find a personal assistant who works for free books and virtual hugs and cookies OR when I feel “better enough” to do it more regularly again. It seems silly to post those sporadically when it’s a series.

For a lot of this year I was pretty sure I wouldn’t have anything but Mirage out. All year. But then I wrote Solitude with Anna Martin, and I wrote a little short story for an anthology over at Wilde City, and so there are two things that are out soon. There’s also the little freebie I wrote for the M/M Romance group’s event on Goodreads. There are stories out, just not so many. I’m trying to tell myself I haven’t failed and that I won’t. That I might just be getting better again. But we’ll see. Time will tell.

You can find Solitude here and the Bedtime Stories anthology here. I hope you enjoy them both.

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