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08.02.2014

What's Up?

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That’s the question. Well, first of all, as many of you who might read this know, I suffer from depression that is always there. Depending on a number of things, sometimes extremely random ones, I can do pretty well for a time, then pretty damn unwell the next instant.

None of this is new to me. I’ve suffered from anything from “mild” to “not-quite-suicidal” depression for most of my adult life. That’s more than a decade now. There was a time, around 2006-2010 when I felt much better and at times considered myself depression free. I’m not sure if I was, if I’m completely honest, but I was better. That’s the keyword here. With how my mental health is, “better” is a thing to aspire to be. “Healed” or “depression free”… No, I don’t much believe in those.

All that said, the last year has been pretty rough on me. The last six months even more so. There have been times when I’ve been seriously scared of my condition and how it has ups and downs and random spin-arounds. But hey, I’m still here!

For me personally—and I assume this might go for lot of writers/creative people with depression—my mental health is very connected to my creative outlet. Writing, for me, is always the thing that makes me feel better. Worthy. Even good. But when I’m depressed, the joy of writing is sucked out and my creativity dwindles, and I feel more depressed because I’m not writing, and then I can’t write because I feel like crap…. Endless cycle. Endless.

This summer I had my medication adjusted. New things and old things are being tried out, to see if something would help. To add to my condition, I have (somewhat mild) ADHD. And issues with falling asleep. Both of those mean additional medication. For me, no depression medication has ever really helped long term. None. And I have tried probably over a dozen different ones over the years. This time we went back to basics and back to serotonin which is pretty much as basic as you can get. It’s never worked before.

This time, it seems to be working. A little. How do I know this? I have ideas. I’m writing a little bit. I feel creative bursts that were missing for months and months. I have stories fading in and out of my mind like I had last year when things were better.

So I’m writing. It might take time, but dear deity I’m writing. When my favorite season, autumn, arrives soon, I expect to feel much better anyway. I’m one of those weird people who get worse in springtime and better in the fall, instead the more usual other way around. Light, for me, is worse than darkness.

All that said, the Fifty Questions with Tia thing is on hold until I find a personal assistant who works for free books and virtual hugs and cookies OR when I feel “better enough” to do it more regularly again. It seems silly to post those sporadically when it’s a series.

For a lot of this year I was pretty sure I wouldn’t have anything but Mirage out. All year. But then I wrote Solitude with Anna Martin, and I wrote a little short story for an anthology over at Wilde City, and so there are two things that are out soon. There’s also the little freebie I wrote for the M/M Romance group’s event on Goodreads. There are stories out, just not so many. I’m trying to tell myself I haven’t failed and that I won’t. That I might just be getting better again. But we’ll see. Time will tell.

You can find Solitude here and the Bedtime Stories anthology here. I hope you enjoy them both.

03.13.2014

Novel Number Five!

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I suddenly have Lou Bega’s Mambo Number 5 playing in my head. (You’re welcome.)

I guess I never thought I’d come this far. Four years ago I was thinking I wouldn’t be published before my thirtieth birthday. That was my original Big Dream, by the way. I was published a few days after my thirtieth in 2011. So I almost made it, and I have to be happy with that.

Now, three years later, I have several—holy crap, almost ten!—shorter stories out there, and in a few days my fifth novel will be out there for everyone to see. FIVE NOVELS. Can I repeat HOLY CRAP!

How did all of this happen? When I started writing fan fiction almost five years ago after having not written a thing in years, I never thought this was where I was heading. It wasn’t my intention to be a published author. Instead, I’d found a new fandom I enjoyed, found out I could relate enough to use someone else’s characters and write these stories some people actually liked to read.

That was mind blowing: Someone liked what I wrote. These days the feedback is less instantaneous and I can’t just upload a story I’ve just finished to some website and know that by the morning someone has left a comment. What hasn’t changed is the fact that I’m still blown away whenever someone who likes my books emails me to say so.

I’m not a big name in M/M romance and I probably never will be, but that’s not why I write so it’s fine. I write for me, because my head likes to get the evil bunnies hopping about out before I go crazier. I write because there’s no other way for me to live anymore.

Even when I struggle with real life stuff and health stuff or even the fact that I live a long way away from any big events that mostly happen in the US, the plot bunnies keep doing their thing and there will be more stories, eventually.

The next one that’s out, number five, is a story of a washed out alcoholic country music star Jasper and a truck driving, songwriting, tattooed ex soul surfer Cade. The story also has rescue pitbulls, inner struggles, coming out, families, and lots of music references I couldn’t help—the boys insisted.

So if you like Mirage, let me know. I’d really love to hear from you. Oh and if you want to, you can follow my daily music countdown to Mirage on my FB author page, just click here.

10.20.2013

Coming Soon, Finnshifters…

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After doing the writing thing for a couple of years and having seen quite a few release dates and coming soon page appearances, I’m happy to report that it still makes me go “ooooh!” and smile widely when I see that email in my inbox that says my next release is now on the coming soon page.

This time it’s Finnshifters 3: Howl Sweet Howl, which is Sean and Rider’s story, but as always with this series, it’s a story of how life continues on the farm after The Storm. If you haven’t read this series yet, but are interested in taking a look at my shifters, please start with FS1: Chuffed. There’s a continuous plot underneath the love stories, and you’ll miss out if you don’t read the books in order.

To celebrate FS3 and Positive, I’m planning on a blog tour AND I have a Facebook chat coming up on the Dreamspinner Press’s FB page too, so keep your eyes open so you won’t miss it. ;)

07.08.2013

Cover reveal, sisu, and g…

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But not in that order.

Lately I’ve been thinking about readers as a whole, how I read, and what I think about all that as an author. First of all I honestly think that authors can’t necessarily expect a whole lot “understanding” from readers who don’t write.

Writing a story from beginning to end, especially when you also want to get it published, is different than anything you’ve probably ever done. Once you’ve gotten through all that and taken the reactions and reviews and ratings and feedback, you’re changed forever.

You’ll read differently too. You try to understand a book, the author, everything, much more. You’re less likely to jump into conclusions, to be harsh about another person’s work, and especially how you portray your opinions to other readers.

So the generalizations? In general, readers don’t see books like authors do. They think we write vampires because of Twilight and BDSM because 50 Shades of Shpoop. That’s not true. At least not often, not with proper authors who have integrity. Why? Because it takes months and months to get your story from an idea to a published book.

Sure, those two books I mentioned took a lot longer than a few months to die down even a little, but still, it’s virtually impossible to predict what will sell and when it will sell. Accusing authors of riding the wave of *enter some (sub)genre here* is stupid. Because it’s all but impossible to predict that much!

If I KNEW what the next huge thing would be, wouldn’t I be writing that instead of a story of a washed up forty-something country singer who is not only a recovering alcoholic, but also has kids, a low self-esteem, an ex-wife called Jolene and a tiny flickering hope within himself to find love just for himself? No, I wouldn’t be writing that book, I’d be writing the NEXT BIG THING to get maximum money out of my feeble efforts in writing.

When I write a story, I never, ever think what people in general will think about it. I can’t put myself down like that. I try to write for a living, here. I try to do that in M/M fiction, people! Do you have any idea how hard that can be?

In addition, I battle depression and the fact that English isn’t my first language. That, alone, makes my writing different from others. Different in a way that makes my style difficult for some people to read. In general, I’m could be thought of as a failure from the beginning.

How in the hell can I sell books with the starting point I have? How do I dare to think I might actually support myself and my menagerie with the way things are?

One word: Sisu.

Oh and here’s the cover for Positive, out August 14th. ;)

07.01.2013

Heat, news and upcoming r…

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I’ve been slacking again. I’ll blame the heat, because frankly THIS CAN’T BE FINLAND!! It’s been so hot in here for the last nearly two weeks it’s ridiculous. When it’s not hot enough to boil me, it’s thundering so I can’t be online. The times I can write is used by editing or trying to write and I’ve done pretty good job with dodging the thunderstorms that have been pretty wicked this summer, naturally because of the heat.

On June 17th, I finally had my baby. Not a human one, I don’t have those and probably never will, but a doggie one. She came from Spain, she’s a rescue, and  I love her to bits. Her name is Tara, she’s a bull terrier mix and she’s around 10 months old now. She’s kept me pretty busy when we’ve had energy. As you can guess, the animals don’t like this much heat either. Oh and before someone asks, it’s been around 29C / 85F, continuously, which is a lot for us.

Back to business! I had a freebie story come out early June. It’s for the Goodreads M/M Romance group’s event called Love Has No Boundaries. You can find the story, titled Cherry Blossoms and Titanium here.

Next bit of news is that I have changed my next book’s name during the production process. It’s now called Positive instead of Tainted. I’ll have you a release date and such later, but here’s the blurb already:

Even after a decade, the life that journalist Brent Walsh and Milwaukee homicide detective Shawn Mackey have made together is far from boring. But when a new case cuts a weekend getaway short, they aren’t quite prepared for how it will impact their personal lives. Suddenly there’s too much to juggle: Shawn will be working the case of the sharpshooter who is trying to infect random people with HIV, Brent needs to cover the story but fears a conflict of interest, one of Shawn’s colleagues is attracted to him, and Brent sincerely needs to mend the painful break with his childhood best friend, Ollie, and heal their broken hearts.

Though case comes to a close, it’s not the end of their troubles. Shawn and Brent still face a past of old white lies, a present possibility of inviting another man to their bed, and a future with children, not to mention health issues and national fallout from the case. It’s enough to make them want to run away—until they realize they have to face those challenges head-on so they can get on with the life of love they’re hoping for.

Last but not least: I received a contract for Finnshifters 3 last night. This means the book will be out around Nov/Dec and I’ll, again, let you know more when I have the details. I know some of you have been waiting for this book for ages now, so I hope you’re happy for the heads up. :) It’s Sean’s book, it’s pretty angsty, and it’s–as always–about the farm family as a whole.

That’s about it for now. See you when I have more to post! :)

11.02.2012

FIP, NaNoWriMo, winter an…

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Hello, lovelies!

Since it is November now, NaNoWriMo is on full swing. It’s day 2 and I have a little over 7k words on my document! Yay for that! I’ve also ordered myself the NaNoWriMo hoodie I’ve been drooling at for two years now… Finally! (It’s all about the little things, trust me on this… ;) )

Falling Into Place is now on Dreamspinner’s Coming Soon page. The release date is November 30th, so you can reward yourself with it once all the work is done. Or something. I don’t really need excuses to buy and read books…. *cough*

Winter! It’s coming. Too fast to my liking! Only early November and we have snow. Several inches of it. Now, that might be fine in general, I’m a Finn, we’re used to snow, but if this doesn’t melt soon, I might go crazy! I hate this sloshy wet part of late autumn/early winter. I don’t want to go outside to slip and slide around the yard! Nevermind going for a walk…. *grumbles* Realistically I know the snow won’t stick yet, but I can’t wait for the mess it makes our yard to clear a little.

On other news, I did go to keep my dad company the other day while he was “rabbit hunting”. I’m using the term “hunting” loosely here, he prefers to sit and listen to the dog bark while running after the rabbits instead of shooting the critters. Oh he does shoot one or two every fall, but that’s kind of minor compared to most who hunt rabbits. And yes, rabbit hunting is a popular thing here in Finland, in case you were wondering. We even have our own hound dog breed here for it.

Anyway, I was with dad and the dog out there and I went on a long walk, ending up at someone’s property (summer cabin, and the someone is a person my dad knows, so it was fine, heh) and since it was on a lakeshore, I went to their little dock to listen to the ice. See, when the lake starts to freeze, the shores are the first to go, obviously, and with how the weather was, there were bits of broken off ice clinking together with the frozen solid part of the shoreline. It was such a pretty sound! Ice music, my mom called it. That’s where the photograph is from in this post. I hope I could add the sound to it!

Contest, I believe I mentioned a contest…. Oh yes! Since FIP is coming out soon, I was thinking about holding a contest! Problem is, I’m not quite sure what kind… Any suggestions?

10.22.2012

Things to look forward to

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Lately, I’ve tried to figure out how to do this writing thing while being this The cover for Falling Into Place.depressed. I’ve figured out a few things that I think might work for me.

  • Get rid of deadlines – This means I won’t be getting out anything like Technically Dead 2 or Finnshifters 3 out “in time”. But it takes out the stress, which means I might get my writing mojo back. Don’t worry, I’m still writing them, eventually.
  • Write if you feel like writing, if not… do something else.  – Forcing myself to write will not work. It leads to more stress and depression and, above all, crappy stories.
  • Forgive yourself for letting people down. – I know I have readers now. Readers who await for my books. Sequels are the thing that makes me feel the worst when I fail producing them. Why? Because there ARE people who loved the original book or earlier parts of a series. But the fact stands: It’s either crappy writing from a depressed writer, or better stories from an inspired one.
  • Do what works for you. – I keep my ADHD in check by doing several things at the same time when I write. I play with the kittens, watch a show or a movie, write, go do housework, whatever it takes to keep me from staring at the screen blankly when my brain gets stuck on one thing. If I don’t… well, my ADHD finds it fun to distract me from the writing completely. This is just a way for me to control what my head does.
  • Make your own rules. – I’ve been trying to figure out how to write my NaNoWriMo-story this year. There are things about it that are tricky, if not plain impossible “in real life”. Well guess what? I don’t care. It’s my story which is FICTION. ;)
  • NaNoWriMo your heart out! – I’ve written two of my three (soon) novels during NaNoWriMo. If it works this year, it will also kick my writing in gear in other ways. Right now I’ve not written a word in over a month! That, for a writer, is utterly painful.
  • If you need a break, take one. – I don’t want to quit. I’m not a quitter. So I’m taking breaks. Right now the plan is to do NaNoWriMo and then figure out after that what to do next. Either I’ll get my writing mojo back or not. If not, I’ll take a proper break until I feel like writing again.

I’ve been feeling crappy, like a bad writer, a depressed person, someone who has nothing to give to the field she loves and wants to work in. This might sound… bad, but today I got my Royalty Summary, and I have to say it cheered me up. You guys are buying my books! I can’t be THAT crappy!

So to each and every person who ever bought my books, whether you liked them or not; THANK YOU. You keep me writing, getting better, you give me hope.

Next stop, NaNoWriMo and edits for my next book, Falling Into Place, which will be out next month. And look at the pretty cover!

 

09.21.2012

Back Home

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Last week I was in the UK, in Brighton on the south coast, to be exact. I was there for some much needed vacationing, but also for the UK Meet. It was all so wonderful, although I still loathe flying and came back with a cold that made the plane ride back a bit of a bitch. My ears are still popping a few days later… ugh.

Brighton was marvellous. I’ve been in Hastings which is about one hour east from Brighton and much smaller, but everything else was pretty much as I remembered. I felt at home, somehow. I will definitely go back to Brighton at some point.

Meeting some of the authors I’ve admired and read for a couple of years now was great, as was the whole meet. Meeting or “meeting” as I didn’t get a chance to talk to most of them, people like Zahra Owens, Aleksandr Voinov, Sue Brown, Josephine Myles, Claire London and Jordan Castillo Price, just to mention few, was amazing! To think I was there, one author among others… mindblowing!

In case you’re reading this and you’re a friend of mine on Facebook, I posted 80 photos of the trip today. There are random shots of Brighton and plenty of photos from the Harry Potter Studio Tour as well. That tour in itself was a huge thing for both myself and my teenaged HP-fanatic sister. :) I really loved the place and all the things we saw there.

So what’s next? Well, I’m in the process of trying to tackle Finnshifters 3 now that I’m back home. At the moment I know I should try and write Technically Dead 2, but I may have to skip it for now. It just doesn’t inspire me… Ugh. The depression makes it impossible for me to write anything that doesn’t just flow naturally and since there’s another story in my mind, I may have to write it next instead.

There’s also a freebie short story coming out in the beginning of October. It’s called When I Say When and it’s based on a random idea and another idea I got from listening to too much Foo Fighters. Go figure. You can find the story from Dreamspinner Press’ website.

That’s about it for now. I’ll try to blog more in the future, promise!

 

09.06.2012

Coming Soon - A freebie s…

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Some time ago I wrote this little story that came to me very randomly. Then I spent weeks and weeks on trying to figure out what to do with it. Eventually I decided that I wanted to give it out for free. The smartest way to do that was to give it to my publisher, Dreamspinner Press, and let them offer it as a freebie on their schedule.

So there it is, on the Coming Soon page! In a bit less than a month, you can read a little story about misunderstandings, high school crushes, loving music and finding love in the unlikely places (in this case, after setting up an appointment with a prostitute…)

Hope you’ll like it!

07.19.2012

Countdown to Technically …

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Tomorrow, Technically Dead is out! FINALLY!

Trust me when I say I’ve been waiting to tell this story, write it and then see it published for a long time now. When I wrote the initial version last year, during NaNoWriMo, I was feeling relieved to get it out of my system.

My vampire lore might be different than what you’re used to, but give it a chance. And please, let me know what you thought of the book. Email me or send me message on Facebook or Goodreads.

Here’s your last treat before you get to read the book. This is part of Heath’s ponderings about how he has changed as a vampire over his centuries.


His rental car was a practical something-or-other; he didn’t care much. He had lived for so long that it took more than a fancy machine to make him interested. Actually, he liked horses better than cars, always had.
It had been in England, some three centuries ago, when he’d last had a stable full of horses. Horses were good judges of character, Heath had always thought. One of his horses, an old mare, made him realize he had changed for the worse. The horse had been with him since she was born, almost twenty-five years. It was a long time for a horse, and she was a regal being, very much a lady.
In some ways it surprised Heath that the eventual changes happened so fast when they started for him. It was Lilac that made him see he had become an Elder in the most basic sense. Because the mare was like a mirror, growing from a sensible young horse into an adult horse who seemed to be able to read Heath’s mind, and then into an old mare who was always very correct, not cautious but certainly less keen to show emotion. All those changes happened to Heath, too, in the course of the mare’s twenty-five years.
Some said he got lucky. He knew there were vampires who got into their cold, less human state even before they hit three centuries. For Heath it took six. He lost interest in things like socializing or throwing parties for fun instead of for profit. He started to care less about the human lives he saw taken in wars or by vampires who weren’t that discreet when it came to showing their evil deeds to their own kind.
But the day Heath noticed Lilac giving the cold shoulder to everyone, he realized he was doing the same thing himself. It wasn’t long before the mare gave up and Heath found her dead in her favorite part of the pasture. He vowed he wouldn’t go like that, just because he lost the will to live.
It took three more decades for anything to change enough for him to actually believe in what he could do. Meeting Bran had made an impact. Losing Bran had made another. Now, after the years spent without the young human, he’d come to realize the changes again. He had been more “lively,” but he hadn’t been happy. It was time to change that, if he could.

And there we have it! The countdown is done, and all you have is to sleep one night and the book is out!

Hope you’ll enjoy it. :)

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